I still catch myself sometimes feeling surprised at how peaceful and calm it is to be being within Spirit Mind.
There's just something odd about it for me because most of my life, I craved time with my friends. I wanted to be with others. And oftentimes I felt uncomfortable alone or felt like something was missing. I always really enjoyed the company of other people.
It's odd for me now to feel completely fulfilled by myself. Odd but not in a negative way at all. It's a contrast. I always wondered before, why would somebody go for a month, maybe rent a cabin in the woods and be by themselves? I had just had no concept of how that could be interesting for anybody. It seemed like isolation or just something I would never do.
And now I get it. When I am centered in Spirit Mind, being alone brings me peace and calmness, and I feel full. It's wonderful. Surprisingly, I never knew that this existed. It's probably one of the biggest changes and the biggest surprises from doing the Spirit Mind work for the last few years. I mentioned it to Hisami and she said that I'm feeling that way too. She pointed out that when two people feel fulfilled from within and spend time together, it feels really good.
And it's true. I really enjoy my time with Hisami. And even if we're doing completely different things at the same place together, it just feels good to have somebody else in that same space.
In contrast, the conversations that I usually have with my friends and others mainly involve some kind of drama, my creative pursuits, business, or any external desires or situations, those have now very little pull or draw for me. Even when I am engaged in those conversations, I don't feel passionate about them. I may have some history and information, and I am aware that running a business requires these kinds of conversations, but I just don't have much interest in them anymore.
I can completely do without all of that external conversation. And there's a certain time that it takes after conversing about such things for my brain or my energy to relax and come back to this peaceful state.
It's like some people nowadays could be described as 'urusai' in Japanese, which means loud in literal English However, it's more like being gently disruptive in some way. The energy frequency is different, and it's not the same as feeling full from within.
This little bit of disharmony takes a little time to relax and then return to a peaceful space. Yeah, really fascinating.
And so I hope all of you are enjoying this in your Spirit Mind space from time to time. I just wanted to give you a little taste of some of the fun things that come from doing the Spirit Mind work and being inside Spirit Mind.
