That was reminded last night that nothing feels better than the truth even when it's
not what I want to hear
Especially when it's not what I want to hear so last night I was getting ready to
sleep and so I mean now we're talking about just miscellaneous stuff and she
mentioned that I seemed a little grumpy and was wondering you know what was
bothering me and
My first reaction was to kind of, you know, the knee jerk just resistance like a
Feeling inside like no, I'm not grumpy. How dare you think I'm grumpy, you know
that natural reaction We all get to this but of course, you know, I kind of let
that pass. I was listening and and tuning in I'm like, okay, so this is an
opportunity to know myself a little better and to Look at whatever it is that's
bothering me and probably find a some resolution You know, it wasn't even that deep
though. It just kind of all came in the moment. Just like opportunity step in
That's how spirit mind works. It's not a logical thought process of this will get
me to that and so on It's just a knowing this like Somebody pointed something out
shine the light on something opportunity to step in. This happens all the time in
our daily life, and a lot of times we don't notice the opportunity, or we just go
buy it because we're kind of stuck on our own thought patterns. But in this case,
I kind of paused and reflected, and what I said is kind of surprised me,
but it's something that's been growing inside me. I realized that I'm not very happy
with my work right now, And that kind of surprises me.
It might surprise you if you're listening too, because of course I'm happy that I'm
following my dreams, that I'm teaching about energy work and intuition and helping
you saw me spread the spirit mind message. And I love that I'm helping people,
the people are getting value out of the stuff that I'm creating. And I also really
love the people that I'm working with. When I'm spending time with them, it's it
feels really good There's a joy there that I'm noticing especially recently that
maybe I wasn't noticing before because I was just more overwhelmed with this Brewing
sense of unhappiness that I was unwilling to look at So last night just kind of in
this light space that he saw me was holding. I was able to look at it more
clearly and say, oh
It's not that I'm doing the wrong job or that I have the wrong title or that,
you know, any of the things that kind of my material mind would like to sort out
to try to figure out what's going on. It's more that I'm spending my time doing
things that aren't natural for me. And this really came as a big insight.
actually you saw me mention it because I was talking through some of the things I'm
doing and I said, "I don't really enjoy this part and I do enjoy that part." And
she said, "Oh well that's simple. The things that you really enjoy doing that come
naturally to you, those are the things that you want to continue." And the ones
that don't come natural are the ones that are going to, you know, she didn't say
these words but I could see the energy as she was talking. It's like, these are
the ones that are gonna build stress. It's kind of like, if you look at the water
flowing down the river, it's just flowing and enjoying its own thing. Everything is
smooth and nice. But if it gets to a place where it can't flow, then we get
rapid. There's this friction, there's this tension, there's this kind of excitement,
if you will, but also stress.
And I noticed, oh, okay, that's a really simple way to see it. So right now,
I'm in a lucky space where I can really choose what I want to do. I'm not
overwhelmed by debt. I've got good momentum in my career. I can lean in a new
direction. In fact, I do it every couple of years. I lean in a new direction. So
I'm well familiar with this, but the insight that came last night was not exactly
where I want to go or what I need to do, but just that knowingness that I was
looking honestly at what was bothering me and that I was saying it out loud and
sharing it without judgment felt so good. I didn't have any resolution as to I
should take direction A instead of direction B or I should stop doing this or start
doing that other thing. I didn't have any of that, but I had this beautiful sense
of peacefulness and relief just knowing that I've opened myself up to looking within
and seeing the truth, to knowing myself better. And when I do that,
just a smile comes to my face. You can probably hear it in my voice. Smile comes
to my face, just my energy lifts, and I realize ah, seeing the truth is always
better than avoiding the truth. Even when I'm afraid of the truth, especially when
I'm afraid of the truth, that's the time to take a beat, breathe, maybe have a
trusted friend there, and just go a little deeper into what is it here and uncover
that beautiful truth within? Because even though I didn't wanna see it,
or I didn't wanna admit it, or I was afraid I'd find a problem I couldn't fix,
none of that happened. All that shifted was the fear released, the frustration
released, the is released and I felt a beautiful piece within. And I thought this
is such a great example of working with spirit mind and of noticing in a subtle
way the workings of the mind that have been keeping me stuck in this little grumpy
place. So wonderful.
