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I was reminded today that
we're all kind people inside.
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Even me, even though we have outbursts
at times, it doesn't take away from the
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fact that inside we're kind to people.
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So in my last episode, I was talking about
how I was spreading this energy of feeling
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bad about who did it, or blame or guilt
when something bad goes wrong and today.
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The same assistant came over and right
away she said, oh, I'm really sorry
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for that thing that I did yesterday.
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And I said, no, no, I'm, sorry for
the way I took something really
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small and made it into something big.
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This is an energy pattern I have Where
the just a little problem gets blown outta
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proportion and seems like a big problem.
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And I have this energy pattern where
I do that and I'm working on it.
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No problem.
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You didn't do anything wrong.
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And in fact, we don't even know who
deleted the thing that got deleted?
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It could have been me just as easily.
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Then she said, oh, 今日は Jeffreyは本当に優し
い which means, today Jeffrey's really
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kind or really gentle and, and I, I
didn't really think anything of it.
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And then he saw me repeated it again
and I was like, oh, yeah, yeah.
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Thanks.
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時々 which means, yeah, sometimes.
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Sometimes I'm kind of gentle
and we all had a good laugh
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about it because it's just true.
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All of us have this kind gentle person
inside that I think of as my true self.
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And it's obscured when emotions come up.
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You know, when something gets
triggered and the pain that we're
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circulating inside starts, you know,
we start spreading it to others.
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And, but it doesn't
mean that it goes away.
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It sometimes it seems like it, sometimes
it seems like, oh, that person is just
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mean or they've changed, but it just means
that that person's working on something.
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I was really happy that we
all had a good laugh about it.
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We could just acknowledge
that, this is happening and it
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happens to other people too.
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For me, what I'm looking for is that
when the situation comes up next time,
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in the moment that I remember that,
oh, this energy that I'm circulating
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outside is an energy within me
because it's been a while since I was
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just unconscious and believed that.
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The words I was saying, or the
blame I was spreading was true.
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Now I know that it's not
true, it's just energy.
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But I can't always stop myself,
from, verbalizing things
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and spreading that energy.
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Since I know that now I can take the
second step and say, "I am feeling.
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Energy of self-doubt or I'm circulating
that energy that I feel guilty or I don't
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quite know what I'm doing or all the
things that I'm spreading to other people.
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This is what's happening within me.
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And right away when we can do this, I say
we, 'cause I'm hoping you can do it too,
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when, when we can notice our pattern, all
the focus goes away from the other people.
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And it goes to where the problem
actually is, which is I'm trying
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to heal an energy within me.
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There's something that's uncomfortable.
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A situation came up where the energy got
touched and now it's coming out, but it's
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not coming out because it belongs outside.
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It's coming out because I
don't know what to do with it.
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And I'm, I'm looking outside
for somewhere to put it because
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I'm trying to hide this energy.
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Like I don't want people to
know that I feel these things.
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And so our ego kind of automatically
starts projecting blame on others.
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That's all blame really is.
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It's just a way of deflecting or
kind of hiding, you know, getting
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the attention off of ourselves.
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So when I can see that in the moment,
when we can do that in the moment,
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then all of a sudden the energy is
back where it belongs, which is, oh,
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I'm feeling some energy like this.
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And when I've done that before, in other
situations I can just say it, "ah, this
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situation's really frustrating for me.
And I feel kind of foolish. Like maybe I
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made a mistake and I remember other times
when I have." And I can start talking
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about myself and these experiences, or
just talk about the energy circulating.
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That shifts it completely.
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'cause now I'm not talking about who
should I shoot this energy at or should
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I just shoot it out into the world
and hopefully it sticks on somebody.
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So just a little hint, if you have
this coming up, I hope that'll help.
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And you and I both can help turn within in
these moments of need and heal ourselves
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rather than projecting on others.
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Because that's really what's gonna
make the world a more peaceful place.
