I’m always surprised and relieved when I wake up with my analyzer in a fantastic space.
It’s all too easy to wake up in the space of overwhelm or unknowns or a feeling that maybe I’ve overdone things. Sometimes when I’m feeling really good and motivated, I’ll sign up for anything. I’ll say, “I’m going to speak at that event. I’m going to create this new program. I’m going to write a book.” All the things that I get excited about doing.
These are all things I’d love to do and I’m excited about. But it’s easy sometimes for it to feel overwhelming.
I just booked a conference ticket to a conference I’m speaking at in about four months. And just the act of booking the ticket suddenly made it real. It took it out of the space of a future event that I know I’ll do fine at, because they’re always great and I love doing them, and it brought it into the space of, “Oh yes, this is real. I’m going.”
But I’m not ready today.
Now, of course, I’m not ready today because this is in four months, and I’m not ready for everything that’s coming in four months. Other than the sense that I’m ready—I’ve lived my life, I have my experiences, and I’ll be ready in the moment to do whatever is necessary.
But I haven’t done any preparation yet. I haven’t even chosen exactly what I’m going to talk about.
So this can create some anxiety.
A couple days ago, I was feeling this. And as I was doing energy work, just relaxing and bringing myself back into the space of Spirit Mind, what that means is letting my analyzer, my Material Mind, come back into the space of love—knowing everything is going to be fine.
In the moment, everything will roll out in exactly the right way. I’m going to have a great time—not just with this, but with all the other projects I’ve signed myself up for.
This year I decided to really lean into things. Writing a book. Creating a new program I’ve been thinking about for years. Doing the things I actually want to do.
And with that joy and enthusiasm also comes a little overwhelm at times.
Especially because I’m also taking more time to enjoy life—working out, dancing with Hisami, just living. And sometimes it feels like enjoying life is at odds with doing all these things… even though those things are part of enjoying life too.
So for a couple days, I felt that mix of overwhelm. I would bring my mind back into balance, feel peace again… but then wake up the next day and still feel that low-level anxiety.
But this morning was different.
I woke up with excitement.
I suddenly saw clearly that everything I’m working on overlaps. The talk I’m preparing connects to the program. The program connects to the book. Everything connects because it’s all coming from me.
And that felt amazing.
But what really struck me was this: I didn’t try to get to this space.
I woke up in it.
So why?
A couple reasons.
Two days ago, I took the whole day off. Did nothing. Just relaxed.
Yesterday, I worked a focused four hours in the morning, then went dancing with Hisami, worked out, and just enjoyed life.
I compressed my work into a short window, made great progress, and then stepped away.
And now I wake up feeling clear, aligned, and excited.
That shift—bringing the mind back into a space of trust, of balance, of knowing that life will work out—it changes everything.
Maybe things won’t happen exactly as planned. Maybe some projects get delayed. That’s okay.
The important thing is allowing life to flow in a way that feels smooth and aligned with actually living.
And when I do that, everything starts to come together.
I love that space.
And I also appreciate that I can love myself not just in the clarity, but in the overwhelm too.
Because even in those moments, I can take a break, step back, and remember:
If I’m overwhelmed… I’m not really living.
And I can always come back.
